Shiya keeps reaching up into the air and grabbing ‘baby ayrie’ out of the air and happily handing ayrie to me to kiss. Â I then place ‘baby ayrie’ on my heart and tell shiya how happy I am that he was able to find ayrie and share him with me and I tell Ayrie how much i love him. Â We do it every night before bed and a couple of times during each day. Â It really do feel that ayrie is with us in those moments. Â So tonight when I…read more
From my good friend and supporter extraordinare, Laurel: Nora, I just wanted to say thanks for posting about your grief–and moments of Light. Only you can know what you are going through, and I am so grateful to you for letting us in a little. I wish so badly that we could all help you carry this pain. I wish the pain that your hundreds of friends are feeling about Ayrie could somehow diminish the pain you feel. My Response: I haven’t been talking to people much in person or on…read more
yesterday we had to cancel shiya’s afternoon plans because the farmer’s market was just too much for him. Â We did our Saturday morning ritual of swim lessons followed by the farmer’s market. Â One is across the street from another and as we walked over the the market shiya gripped me tightly and said, “we won’t be sad. Â right, mom?” Â and we weren’t. Â we saw people, smiled, ate hot dogs and drank fizzy ginger lemonade. Â But when we got home he lost is and cried and threw things about for hours….read more
10.9.10 Perhaps it was time for ayrie to go Perhaps he only had a limited time on earth, had a job to do, had something to teach me or to teach other Certainly this seems to be what the vast majority of people say to me And sometimes I believe it But right now I am mad And I am so sad that I can’t see and I can barely breathe My body heaves with tears as I write this Rage It wasn’t his time! How did this happen?  How…read more
This is a question Shiya asks and it seems that there are two answers… what happened to Ayrie’s body AND what happened to Ayrie’s life force. Â While the spiritual component of this question is hard to answer and one I’ll write about later, I wanted to share my thoughts about his body. ***** When I think about Ayrie and I think about life. I feel his energy, his vibrancy, his contagious smile. As I held him in my arms early September 29th while the medical team was trying to resuscitate…read more
Ayrie in the Light When I was in those moments between awake and asleep last night I felt very peaceful, grateful and even a bit optimistic about the future.  A curious feeling after so much grief.  I felt like Ayrie was in me… as though my soul had moved over to make space for a part of his soul… as though I was experiencing him more completely than I ever did while he was with us…as though a seed was planted. It was beautiful, intense and in the moment it…read more
People have been asking how they can help and with the help of Laurel (a fantastic friend) we’ve created a website that makes it easy for people to support us in very specific ways. Â Just click on the icon above. Â Much gratitude and love. Â xoxo nora
“We see Ayrie soon?â€, Shiya asked tonight. “No,†I told Shiya.  Ayrie’s not coming back. “Maybe tomorrow?  After we sleep?†“No,†I said again. “Maybe just for a little bit?†“No,†I told Shiya.  “And it makes me feel very sad.  It makes my heart hurt.†“But Shiya’s still here!â€, Shiya exclaimed. “You are, and that makes me so happy,†I said and gave him a tight hug. Next Shiya and I sat in the hallway outside Shiya & Ayrie’s bedroom and talked to Ayrie.  Shiya told me that Ayrie…read more
Remembering Ayrie Mekai Jones Murphy February 16, 2006 – September 29, 2010 Thank you for being with us to remember Ayrie. Quakers believe that every person is a source of continuing revelation and that God can speak through each of us through our inner light, our spark of the Divine. Ayrie ‘s spark glowed so brightly with intense purpose and passion. Our remembrance will begin at 4pm in the Friends Meeting Room with meditative silence.  Nora will break the silence, after which time we invite people to “speak out of…read more
People have been asking how they can help so I have thought of ten ways.  I am sure there are more so please don’t feel limited.  All gestures, thoughts & prayers are so very much appreciated. Write February 16th, Ayrie’s birthday on your calendar and call us every year.  Stay connected.  Be in our lives.  Help us remember him with joy. Make a donation to our family through my sister’s paypal link on the right hand side of this website or send a check to Nora Murphy, 3015 10th Ave…read more