epiphany at the water park
things that change.Â But it doesnâ€™t change.
People wonder about what you are pursuing.
You have to explain about the thread.
But it is hard for others to see.
While you hold it you canâ€™t get lost.
Tragedies happen; people get hurt
or die; and you suffer and get old.
Nothing you do can stop timeâ€™s unfolding.
You donâ€™t ever let go of the thread.
I am seriously dense. Â I mean, I get soooo many messages from my internal compass, from my spiritual guides, from family and friends, and yet I am still unable to solve the math problem! Â When I read ‘The Way It Is’ the thread I think of my divine purpose. Â My ‘work’ in this lifetime. Â I’ve always felt clueless as to what it would be, or if I even had enough to give the world to make my workÂ meaningfulÂ to anyone. Â I wasn’t sure whether I was still holding on to my thread or whether I lost it a long time ago.
So here are some of the variables that are finally aligning for me. And yes, this hit me in a flash at the water park today.
X- I knew as soon as I started working with kids, at the age of 18, that I wanted to be a foster parent some day. Â But somehow the time never seemed right. Â I have started the application in more than one state but never followed through with it.
Y- I have been through a lot of crap. Â More than many people my age born into a stable, loving middle class white family. Â Some crap of my own making, otherÂ seeminglyÂ from no where, like I’mÂ fulfillingÂ a bad karmic debt. Â (Or at least that’s what I used to think).
Z- Ayrie is a powerful healer, but works from the other side. Â He chose me to work with and work through.
A- The healer I visited in NH, Marie, told me:
- A1- My internal power comes from the divine mother
- A2- My role in this life is ‘wounded healer’
- A3- Ayrie thinks I am brilliant (blush) and that my intellect is an important ingredient
- A4- My life is going to take a public turn where i will serve to be an inspiration.
- A5- I am seriously protected, in this realm and in the spiritual realm.