Life is What You Make It
Life is What You Make It
We’ve all heard this a thousand times or more, right? I think that I always agreed… but I think that for the first time I am starting to understand.
This morning Shiya and I were cuddling outside in the cool, bright, clear, November sunshine as Be scurried about the yard. We were talking about the birds, the sounds of the trees and Ayrie. I hugged Shiya so tightly and said, “We were so lucky to have Ayrie. He taught us so many important and beautiful things before he died.â€Â Shiya said “yeah-huh†and we just held each other and savored that feeling for a moment. And I really felt it. In my heart and being. I was so blessed to have Ayrie. As though I was chosen to receive a precious gift.
But I have chosen to feel this way. It took a lot of work in the beginning to fill my consciousness and sub-consciousness with graciousness and gratitude rather than bitterness and resentment. I could go around and tell myself angrily every day: “I hate life. It’s so unfair. Why was I given a child who was then taken away? Why me?â€Â And rather than feeling like I had a precious gift, I would feel cheated and punished.
Same situation. Different response. Setting me up for two completely different paths to follow for the rest of my life.
And I keep asking myself these days, are these feelings I’m having real? Are they delusional? And then I ask myself, “Does it matter?† Life is short. And fast. And it is a series of moments. There is no truth that is understood by all humans. So we have to make our own truths every day and every moment. So if I choose beauty and love, it’s not delusional, it’s committing each moment to live the life on earth that I want to live.
So ‘Life is what you make it’… I think I’m starting to understand.
You are amazing, and a teacher to us all.
That is so true. so easier to say than do. It is both ways. You get a gift and lose it I think when you lose people. I just can’t imagine where I would be. But I love reading this post because it makes me feel better about you and happy that there is some good thoughts for you right now.
Blessings to you all.