Ayrie in the Light

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Ayrie in the Light

When I was in those moments between awake and asleep last night I felt very peaceful, grateful and even a bit optimistic about the future.  A curious feeling after so much grief.  I felt like Ayrie was in me… as though my soul had moved over to make space for a part of his soul… as though I was experiencing him more completely than I ever did while he was with us…as though a seed was planted.  It was beautiful, intense and in the moment it felt just right.  Right now I don’t know what the seed will become but it has amazing potential energy.  As the plant grows, the roots deepen and the leaves unfurl I will start to understand….

…As someone who has not profoundly spiritual or religious in the past, this experience was a surprise to me.  It was a feeling and a moment that I didn’t think I was capable of having without belief system to tell me that I would have this feeling.  My eyes and my heart are open in a way they never were before.  I have to make sure that give enough time to seeing and listening.