it started when i read about another happily married friend on facebook… happy for her but it felt like a blow to the stomach.  i am so alone.  so unloved.  unlovable?  being a single mom is hard.  never having more than 2 hours away from the kids, and even that isn’t even once a week, is hard.  having no time with friends when i’m not also with kids is not really like having a full social life.  no volunteering.  no hiking.  no clubs.  so there’s no me.  i’m just a mom.  granted, that’s the most important and fulfilling part of me right now, but it should not be the only part that ever gets to see the light of day.  no wonder i feel lost and lonely.