dear ayrie and shiya
sometimes i don’t have enough patience. Â today was one of those days. Â sometimes i am too tired, too stressed, too worried (about real problems) or too focused on the things that aren’t important (made up problems) to be in the moment. Â i over react and i am not the loving mother that i want to be, that i should be.
so sometimes when you feel sad, cranky or obstinant, I am not understanding enough. Â i rush you or raise my voice when i should take a moment to listen or given an extra hug.
ayrie, you are such an old soul. Â there are times when you process things in a more mature and thoughtful way than I do! Â it can be disconcerting but it is amazing to watch. Â i think when you act 3 and get irrationally upset i over react because i forget that you are, in fact, only 3. Â but you are so kind, caring and thoughtful. Â when shiya falls, you pick him up. Â when you get juice for yourself, you also get juice for shiya. Â you take care of people. Â i am proud to be your mother.
shiya, the twos have hit and tantrums are abound. Â but you are filled with this incredible light. Â your spirit has the ability to rise above anyÂ negativityÂ in the moment, and elevate others along with you. sometimes ayrie and i are scowling and you are laughing. Â we look at you, we look at each other, and soon we are laughing too.
thank you both for the gifts that you share with me.
i love being your mom.
xo Â nora